Night of Fate

NOTE: Title comes from a score piece from the Kingdom Hearts soundtrack. If you've played the game then you know exactly what that means, since it has a completely different meaning on the outside.

The whole night was basically a huge battle against me. Mostly I was taking it out on my body by doing push-ups and working out and what not. I've never overworked myself so hard. I think my back teeth imprinted each other because I clenched my teeth so hard so many times.

But I looked at my selves right in their faces. I took on several different forms of my darkness. The first was pretty much Agent Smith from The Matrix Trilogy. And for those of you who are wondering because you've seen it, the answer is yes I did battle Smithes. Or Smiths. Or Smithies, whatever you wanna call it. Agent Smith came to represent the different sides I have, the different people I've invented in my heart and the fake me's. I haven't destroyed them all, but I took out a pretty good number.

Also present was the Green Goblin from Spider-Man. The Green Goblin has always been for me the broken insane pieces of my mind. I've done that to myself through years of self abuse, and only I could destroy the Goblin. I destroyed him before, this would be probably the third time. But I'm sure I've stayed him for much longer this time.

Next was NeoShadow Heartless, which are creatures featured in Kingdom Hearts II. Since they're kind of an upgrade from normal Shadow Heartless, these Heartless came to be the next level of temptations for me, since that's what the original Heartless shadows were to me anyway.

The last three were the most difficult. There was one recurring version of me that switched from me dressed as a member of the Organization from Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories, and Darth Maul from Star Wars: The Phantom Menace. This kinda came in and out representing what I've become. The next was Sephiroth from Final Fantasy VII. It's much too complicated to try and explain what he represented. Pride could be one thing. And last but definitly not least was Ansem, the king-gone-bad sage from Kingdom Hearts. He was pretty much the overall darkness.

After all that, I can say some Smiths are still hanging around. The Goblin is either dead for good or will be gone for quite some time. There are always going to be Heartless, but I think that NeoShadows will think twice next time around. Sephiroth is supposed to be dead, but I think that someone will find a way to bring him back to life.

And as for Ansem...well, you can read about that in "Confessions".