Bewildered Cry

OH MY FATHER!!!

Please, I don't want this!! I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at the end. Please, if I can't stay in the light then smite me and destroy me. I'm too weak and I'm not good enough. How am I ever going to just get rid of my Enemy?!

If I have failed you now, even after last time, then I know that I am doomed to always fail you. How...I can never ever come back. I'll never be good enough. After everything I've done, I can't come back. Why would you take me back? I'm evil, and I rebel openly against you. I disobey you and I don't give a darn. I spit in Your Face, and in the face of Christ. How can He save me yet again?


...Why would He want to save me again? For I will fail You.